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Name: Angelie
Country: United States
State: New Jersey
Birthday: 11/16/1984
Interests: Laughing. HAVING FUN =)
listening to music. stargazing (for Orion) and listening to the gentle rain. art-painting and drawing. badminton. tennis. racquetball. kareoke. watching movies. shopping. mariokart--wario! swimming. water balloon fights =p, sleeping and relaxing. AIM. traveling. trying new things, esp food!
Expertise: Biomedical Engineering
Occupation: Student
Industry: Engineering
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Member Since:
8/16/2002
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| So tonight, Dulce took me with her to one of her NOVA medical school orientation socials. It was at a bar in Las Olas, Florida. I didn't expect anything out of it but 2 drinks for $5 -- Smirnoff Ice and a Corona-- and seeing other nerds like me get to know each other before a long year in medical school started.
But having my Chakra read tonight was totally unexpected. One of Dulce's classmates, Shanda, has a gift of reading people's Chakras. She read Dulce's first and then read mine. I am always open-minded to spirituality so I was totally up for it. Shanda read my 7 Shakras from the bottom up (pelvis to my head). Shanda said that I had no blockages in my pelvis and abdomen so that was good --these areas refer to sexuality.
But then she said that I have a lot of blockages in my heart-- so I hold a lot in my heart (I guess I am very emotional). And then that I have a lot of blockages in my throat area-which means that I keep my thoughts to myself and rarely voice my opinion (this is soo true!). She advised that I should open up more and at least talk to somebody about my feelings--like to a good friend or my boyfriend. Then she said that I have really good intuition, a very strong and accurate one --much stronger than Dulce's in fact--- and that I should listen to it and follow it more than my logic because it will take me to great places. She said that I have a really bright future ahead of me and that she sees me traveling the world! She was very excited when she explained this to me and it brought a smile to my face.
The only thing is that she knew that if I follow my intuition, that I would not make my father very happy. I'm not really sure what this means but the whole being a doctor thing is probably where this fits in. Maybe she means that I will end up pursuing a career other than medicine--maybe volunteer-- who knows, the Humanism program at NJMS might really change me and help me grow and I really do look forward to that. Maybe I will end up being part of Doctors without Borders and treat people around the world! =)
She also said that if I follow my intuition that my spirituality will always guide me. I truly believe in this because God has really taken me far and gave me numerous blessings-- getting into medical school, getting a full ride, being able to participate in a program that will help me become a humanistic physician, having a very supportive family, having a wonderful boyfriend who takes care of me, and true friends.
I think I will always have this meeting with Shanda at the back of my mind to guide me in the future. She said that things always happen for a reason, and that meeting her was not coincidence, that I met her because I was ready. She said that my meeting with her might completely change the course of my life--maybe I will change my career path or do something completely different in medicine --but at the expense of my father's approval. Who knows. But she really did open my eyes and make me smile--she told Dulce that I was a wonderful sister with a bright future and that really made my night! =)
Hard to believe that could happen at a bar social huh? | | |
| Haven't had time to recap but here is the awesome weekend I had:
Thurs 10.12
Mark
calls me at 5:19 am asking me if I'm ready to go to the airport and I
reply with an "oh crap, what time is it I just woke up." My flight is
at 6:50 am, and I had told Mark I would meet with him at 5:15 am. Good
thing he woke up and called me or else I would have been extremely late
for my flight. So I got ready in about 10 minutes and Newark Airport is
pretty close to NJIT so it was a quick 15 minutes to get there. The
security checkpoint was pretty quick too, so I got to my gate when the
airline was starting to board people, around 6:35am. (Phew! Thanks
Mark!)
My flight was about 5 hrs and 30 minutes. I was
expected to land in Phoenix Sky Harbor Airport at 9:27am Arizona time
(3 hrs time difference) and got there a little early. However, it was
not early enough because I had the window seat and didn't bother going
to the bathroom throughout the flight. I really had to go and we were
still in taxi for about 10 minutes. All I had on my mind was, "I gotta
pee, I gotta pee" and not the fact that I had my cell phone in my lap.
So when I got up to get my luggage, I totally forgot that my cell phone
was in my lap and didn't notice that I was missing my phone until I
left the airport. Ed's company ASCO had prepared for someone to pick me
up, I had expected a shuttle, but I got a personal driver to pick me
up. It reminded me of Seinfeld when Jerry and George pretended to be
the Nazi guy cuz the driver held a paper of my name on it. The driver's
name was Jim, he was very nice, we talked the whole way to the resort,
which was about 30 minutes from the airport. The whole time 'tho, I was
fidgeting with my purse and jacket looking for my phone. "All I was
thinking of was Oh no, I guess I really lost my phone now. O well It's
time for a new one"
When I got to the Hyatt Regency Scottsdale
Resort the receptionist couldn't give me the key card to Ed's room
because of security reasons, so she was saying that I would have to
find Ed, but he was in a meeting all day. Luckily I memorized
Kristine's cell phone number and contacted her to get me at the lobby.
Ed also gave her an extra keycard so luckily I was able to shower after
the long flight when I got there. So the whole weekend, I didn't have a
cell phone, so I felt like I was in my own little world. It was a nice
feeling. No worries, total relaxation. I forgot about school and my
other responsibilities. I was even relaxed enough to forget the my MCAT
score was supposed to come out on the 14th, the same day as my mom's
birthday.
 
So
I hung out with Kristine afterwards and we explored the resort. It had
about 11 pools and tons of fountains and waterfalls, and a water slide
that was 3 stories high (you had to climb a winding staircase to get to
the top). We couldn't swim that day, however beautiful and sunny it
was, but we were able to go mountain biking in the trails along the
mountains in Arizona. That was both a frightening but amazing
experience. We had to bike on these really sandy trails that easily
moved under you when your tires rolled over them so I felt like I was
going to fall the whole time. Kristine actually did early during the
ride because she felt like she was slipping so she just jumped off her
bike. Luckily she only scraped her knee a little bit. Our guide was
very informative about the history of Arizona, about the plants, and
mountains, and about biking. It was definitely quite an experience. Ed
and I also met this couple who volunteered to maintain the mountain
trails in exchange for free stay at the area. They were nomadic
mountain bikers looking for the best trails in the west coast. The
husband had already gone to Utah and all the crazy trails in Arizona.
It was pretty interesting meeting someone who lived their life
completely following what they loved the most. The other guide we had
was also pretty interesting just because his last name was "Sexhauer"
thats right, it's pronounced exactly the way it is spelled.
  
We
had dinner at 6:30 pm with the rest of the ASCO people. I met Ed's
coworkers and bosses. I felt really young 'tho because everyone had
brought their spouses and Kristine and I and maybe a few other girls
were just the girlfriends. I think I was the youngest one there
actually, but I was still legal of course and had a malibu bay
breeze--just 1 but that was good enough to get me buzzed for the
night---aye I am such a lightweight.
 
We got knocked out at 9:30 pm, we were super tired from the mountain biking and i had been awake since 5 in the morning NJ time.
Fri 10.13
This
day Kristine and I spent sunbathing and swimming at the pools. At
exactly 10 am when the slide opened, Kristine and I were the first ones
there just hogging the slide. I think we went down that thing at least
5x that day, trying to figure out the fastest way to get down the
slide. You have to lay down really flat and arch your back as you go
down, keeping your head back.  
(you van see the water slide tower on the left)
Later
Kristine and I went shopping at the local mall in Phoenix and shopped
at Old Town. We bought my mom a cactus garden for her birthday which we
were missing since we were in Arizona.
That night during the
dinner, Dulce called Kristine saying the MCAT scores were up... I felt
my stomach do flip turns. I knew I had to check my scores or else my
mind would be somewhere else the whole night. So Kristine, Ed, and I
slipped out for a few minutes. As I was walking to the room, I felt
myself shaking. I had to take deep breaths. I signed on to the AAMC
website, and when the screen popped up I didn't even know where to
look. But the first thing I did see was my old MCAT score. I was
starting to get disappointed when Kristine yelled out "OMG you got a
33!" I was so shocked I had improved 5 points and gotten scores that I
had never gotten on my Physics and Bio sections. All I remember is
Kristine giving me the biggest hug and we started jumping for joy. I
jumped on Ed and he give me a spinning hug and I just remember yelling
"Thank you Lord!" I had been praying for the past few nights and making
a wish everytime I saw 11:11 on the clock. I was just so shocked that
my dream from the summer came true too. I called my mom and told her my
score and said that gave her a good birthday present as promised.
Sat 10.14
Mustafa
and Ed were at meetings the whole day while Kristine and I got to relax
and enjoy the weather, but luckily on Sat their day ended early and
they were able to enjoy the pool with us. We hogged the slide... until
my nose started bleeding (I don't know if it was the weather or that I
was getting too much water up my nose). Then we played volleyball
--couples against couples. Ed and I won 2:1 = ). Ed then showed me his
swimming skills and showed me how to swim like a mermaid =p.
The
last dinner was the awards dinner. They made us dance for our food. So
we were doing the electric slide, the boogie, cha cha slide, cotton eye
joe, etc. They had the ladies go up on stage and sing and dance to I
will survive and Ed got a guitar and started rocking to I love rock and
roll... o man
 
Sun 10.15
Ed and I had to
leave early at 4:30 cuz I had another early flight at 6:45 am. At the
ticket counter I asked if the airline had found my phone and they
did--so I got my phone back! The security checkpoint was really long
because they were remodeling the airport. When we got to my gate, my
flight was overbooked but they offered a $250 traveling voucher if I
took a later flight at 7:50 that had a stopover at Cleveland, Ohio.
Since Ed wasn't leaving until 8 am anyway I decided to get the free
money..of course!. It turned out that Ed's flight was booked too and
they offered him a $300 traveling voucher to go on the same flight as
me. It was nice cuz I had to ride by myself on the way to Phoenix and
this time at least I could have Ed's company during the stopover. We
ended up landing in Newark at 6pm because of an hr delay at Cleveland
but still the free money definitely made it worth it.
When we got back to Newark, Ed took me to a Morroccan restaurant in
Montclair to celebrate my MCAT score--and an interview invitation that
Ms. Lettman from the NJMS Admissions office had left on my phone on
Friday ^_^. We had this delicious tea that was sweet and minty. We're
going to try to make that now...maybe with chamomile and mint leaves.
mmm = )
THAT WAS ONE OF THE BEST WEEKENDS EVER! ^_^
**more pictures on my facebook!
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| I saw two monarch butterflies today. That's the third one I've seen in four days. (I actually saw one while driving through the Holland Tunnel)
According to Lady in the Water the "Healer" always has lots of butterflies hanging around him/her. So maybe this means I am meant to be a doctor. 
Only God knows what my future holds and I'll be getting my MCAT scores in 2 weeks--hopefully after I go to Arizona so that my trip isn't ruined. My friend keeps on telling me everyday how much he wishes the MCATs were back already and it just keeps getting me more antsy.
I'm procrastinating so much with my secondaries, and my professors are taking their time with their recommendations. I don't think I'll be getting interviewed until after November 
But still, I had a hopeful dream during the summer that I actually got a 33...
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| It's been such a long time since I updated this. I guess I've been too busy to write.
At first these entries was a way to reflect on my experiences, about life, love, etc. A lot of my entries are private reflections actually. And a lot of my entries included artwork and poems. Then it became a way to just log activities that I had done so that I could remember them later, and pictures were included to capture those moments.
I guess I have lost touch with all of that. I haven't painted in a while. I usually just paint with watercolors in the calendar I got from Mike, and those are hanging up in my room. But I haven't even done that--too busy with studying for MCATs in the summer and applications and using my freetime to hang out with friends and my other half. I don't know if I'm less philosophical or if I ever was for that matter, but I feel less introverted and less reflective.
Life travels by so fast. Looking back, it seems like the only times I stop and think is when I'm sad or I'm bothered by something. I guess I could look at this as a good sign, cause I used to write in my xanga all the time before. Maybe it was a way of telling myself "yes, you are happy, look at all these things you are accomplishing."
Nowadays, I'm busy with schoolwork, as usual, secondary applications that I keep on putting on the back burner cuz they have essays that I really don't want to write. But at the beginning of the semester, I felt a sense of sadness. I was talking to Mark and Jon about how this was my last year, and how the last 3 just flew by. I can't even remember how those went by so fast. I was so involved with school and building up my resume with jobs, activities, research, clubs, etc. that I don't know if I fully enjoyed my college years. Sure I did have fun, I went to the frats and parties, went to Hawaii, the beach, spent time with my boyfriend, friends and family, but I feel like I could have done more.
This is my last year. And so far 4 weeks of classes have gone by and I haven't gone to a single party. Yes, I did go to Ocean City, Maryland for a weekend with my sisters and the boyfriends and that was fun and relaxing. I watched the musical Slava's Snowshow with Ed and have had great times spending time with him. But yet again, I feel like I'm not enjoying my senior year to the fullest. I just wish I could get my MCAT scores back, get these applications
done, get interviewed, and then get accepted to a med school so that I
can just relax. But will I really? I can't seem to get rid of my workaholicism and perfectionism and overachieverism. Nothing ever changes.
I want to enjoy this year. I have so many things that I want to do before I go to medical school. At least I'm leaving something behind at NJIT: I'm going to be in NJIT's university podcast. So once the website is up you'll hear me talking about the campus center, dorm rooms, the gym, and lubetkinfield. It was pretty exciting being in the recording studio at GITC. It made me want to record a song with the NJIT chorus. But I think the budget cut ended that club. I'm still not sure if I'm going to donate some of my artwork to the Honors College, but I'm definitely going to draw something for Mrs. Hulin. She's been asking me for a sample ever since she saw my work.
Ed and I are also going to start taking tango classes in october after our trip to Arizona, which I am really excited about. Then I'm going to Fright Fest this year with the suite. As for Halloween, I think I have a costume in mind. When I went to China town with Ed and his fam last weekend, I finally found one of those chinese dresses that I've always wanted. So I'm probably going to do something with that. I'm thinking about participating in NJIT Day next weekend--maybe my suite can form a team: "6-0-Raawwrr" ^_^.
For winter break, maybe I'll go to California and visit Ed's dad with him. I've never been, and Ed tells me it's beautiful. I really want to do something for spring break too--maybe going to Dominican Republic or Puerto Rico would be nice. I definitely want to go to the 99 Nights 'till graduation event. And I'm definitely going to travel in the summer. Even if that means I'll be broke afterwards, I want to exploring another country for at least a month during the summer. Anyone want to join me?
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| i lil anj L i: do u ever hum or sing to yourself while ure walking?
PowerHouse8d3: Sometimes.
PowerHouse8d3: Why?
i lil anj L i: yeh and u move ur lips right?
PowerHouse8d3: Yeah.
PowerHouse8d3: Sometimes.
i lil anj L i: like singing along to the song
i lil anj L i: yeh i was doing that today
PowerHouse8d3: And someone caught you?
i lil anj L i: and one of my friends caught me
i lil anj L i: hahah
PowerHouse8d3: Haha
i lil anj L i: yeh he was like stop talking to yourself!
i lil anj L i: so embarrassing
i lil anj L i: but it made me laugh at myself and smile
PowerHouse8d3: What song were you singing?
i lil anj L i: girl on tv
i lil anj L i: who sang that again?
i lil anj L i: i cant remember the band
i lil anj L i: wish for u on a falling star
i lil anj L i: wondering where u are
i lil anj L i: do i ever cross ur mind in the warm sunshine
i lil anj L i: shes from the city of angels
i lil anj L i: like betty davis james dean and gables
i lil anj L i: life's not what it used to be
i lil anj L i: i fell for the girl on tv.....
i lil anj L i: i think thats what it is
i lil anj L i: hahah
PowerHouse8d3: Yeah I remember.
PowerHouse8d3: I can't remember the name.
PowerHouse8d3: Pedtridge Farm remembers!
i lil anj L i: HHAHAHHA
i lil anj L i: its pepperidge!!!!
PowerHouse8d3: Is it?
i lil anj L i: yessss
PowerHouse8d3: I thought there was a T in there somewhere.
i lil anj L i: yeh i know
i lil anj L i: u keep saying it with a T
i lil anj L i: lol
PowerHouse8d3: Is that why you keep telling me I'm saying it wrong?
PowerHouse8d3: Bwahahaha
PowerHouse8d3: Okay, now I know.
PowerHouse8d3: PEPpridge Farm remembers.
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